A Delicious Dessert

Why is it that some people don't feel they deserve love? Even it it's falling down endlessly from the sky like snowflakes on a white Christmas, so they seek for shelter?

The "right" guy has seemed to come into everyone's life, the one with the steady head and ambition, the one with gentleman-like manners who has been lucky enough to own all the glamorous merchandise a girl could hope for... why is it that this is never enough?
The appeal of the chase is an attraction that pulls all of us ladies into heartbreak and confusion, and yet we continue to fantasize of these possible scenarios in which we act as independent women who want to be "damsels in distress".

For so many, first loves have always been difficult, in other words, we were unseen as the shining gems we are. And isn't that what we are so attracted to? Winning over the thoughts someone has about us, proving them wrong? That feeling of accomplishment, walking out of the trenches and into a paradise that seems to appealing?

I had a dream last night where he followed me. Having spend years apart that rekindling of lost attraction made him want me again. Should my dream have lasted longer than it's meager few minutes, this wanting may have subsided back into nothing as it so ruthlessly ended in reality. But even though it was a dream, I woke up enlightened, although slightly concerned for this sub-conscious awakening. Even if the truth is that our lives will never be conjoined because too much time has led to a deeper valley of understanding - what is this appeal to seeing him again?
Could it be that I liked not getting what I wanted, that i lived by his rules in his presence?

If that is true, than it may explain how coming to terms with a great relationship can prove to be so difficult. When you're accustomed to one way of things, one way of what love was... how much harder is it to accustom yourself to the way love should really be? Is there a single way of sharing and showing this love? Is is meant to be difficult or a "piece of cake"? And what constitutes that cherry on top?

I think the greatest battle is not to realize that you deserve a great love, but that you can cherish it as well. Because all the flowers, chocolates and kisses in the world mean nothing unless you are willing to receive them.

To all the women who believe that nothing has ever worked out, that you have loved and lost and that time seems to be taking forever - know that there are no boundaries, no standards to which love appears. It doesn't happen in a moment or a lifetime, it happens when you can let go of the heartache, expectations and falsities which surround lust that you can welcome in ... "a cherry cheesecake, and don't forget the whipped cream!"